Rachmaninoff
Here's a list of my personal favorite musicians of all time.
- Rachmaninoff
- Michael Jackson
- Selena
- My Chemical Romance
- Cumbia, the entire music genre
This is the last things I wrote in my Hobonichi journal right before I discovered this community.
One of the first posts I read was someone writing an acceptance speech for how popular one of their other posts became (which was about writing anonymously). I later read through a post about someone wanting to get back in touch with their Latina roots, so I emailed them with a book by the author Irene Vallejo, a wonderfully talented philologist from Spain titled "Manifiesto por la lectura".
High as hell, I looked at my TV screen playing a YouTube video that simply plays 3 hours of classical music by Rachmaninoff, which got me thinking about how much I've always loved how emotive his music touches me, and wondered, "why haven't I privately declared him to be my favorite musician of all time, even, above Michael Jackson (sorry Michael)?" So, I pulled out my Hobonichi Cousins and scribbled a list that felt correct with my heart, that's when it occurred to me that maybe I should make my first post about how I stumbled on to something with such wonderful possibilities, but then I thought "no, you are too busy to indulge in these pleasantries", which is when I signed up, gave this blog a name, and begun typing away.
I'm realizing that I let a lot of my life go by these past few years. It's as if one moment I'm on board an aircraft with my loved ones, but then I'm stranded on an island. Alone.
I've thought a lot about how my actions have brought me to where I am right now, and all I can say is that parts of me were stapled shut a long time ago.
Maybe that's why I struggled to move away from social media.
Maybe that's why I could never bring myself to make a list of my favorite musicians of all time.
Maybe that's why I struggled admitting that Rachmaninoff is my favorite musician/composer/(etc,.).
I couldn't hear myself speak.